Once you told me that you LOVE me and that you will not leave me even if I'm dead!
Now you are being cold to me? What is THIS?
Is there not any feelings towards me anymore??
If you ask me if I was spying on you? Maybe not 'spy', but I want to know what has been up with your life that you HAVE TO let me go just like that?!
I cry everyday. Yes. Everyday!
All my mind, it's you ALL OVER me!
Where are you?? Have you lost somewhere in your mind?
What is going on?
Please sort it out soon.. Because I am going crazy just to think if you are there thinking about me as well?
Why is your LOVE so Unpredictable?
Why is it so hard to LOVE one person and having working at the same time?
Why is it so hard just to ask me "How are you?"??
Why is it so hard to even tell me to "FUCK OFF"?
Then I will never ever appear in your life anymore!!!
Tell me please....Please i beg you...Please...Please...........
HerGard3n.
Friday, March 28, 2008
Monday, March 24, 2008
Making Contacts with Him
Making contacts with him is really painful.
He doesn't pick up his phone calls, he doesn't reply my messages, he ignored my friendster messages, he ignored me in facebook.. He is completely ignoring me.
Not sure if he is still there busy for his studies or really,completely lost the feelings towards me. I'd talked to his good friend, he told me to call and try my best to make contacts with him. And that I should keep on trying to call and send him messages until he make contact with me.. Does that work?
Now I feel so clueless!
Whether to make contacts with him or not make any contacts with him. I'm lost. I am just taking advices everyone's who are closed to me..and not knowing what IS the right thing to do.
Knowing the fact that NO ONE is going to care so much about your own self than their own bussiness! It hurts a lot.. He is there; I am here..Not knowing what I should do instead of following what's there for me to get him back..It's pain..It's pain...
Where is he? What is he doing now? Still online in friendster? Still playing poker in Facebook? Or just busy studying?
"Do you still love me?" This question has not leave me.
The word "Wait" is pain the ass, seriously. But that is ALL that I can do!
"Wait."
HerGard3n.
He doesn't pick up his phone calls, he doesn't reply my messages, he ignored my friendster messages, he ignored me in facebook.. He is completely ignoring me.
Not sure if he is still there busy for his studies or really,completely lost the feelings towards me. I'd talked to his good friend, he told me to call and try my best to make contacts with him. And that I should keep on trying to call and send him messages until he make contact with me.. Does that work?
Now I feel so clueless!
Whether to make contacts with him or not make any contacts with him. I'm lost. I am just taking advices everyone's who are closed to me..and not knowing what IS the right thing to do.
Knowing the fact that NO ONE is going to care so much about your own self than their own bussiness! It hurts a lot.. He is there; I am here..Not knowing what I should do instead of following what's there for me to get him back..It's pain..It's pain...
Where is he? What is he doing now? Still online in friendster? Still playing poker in Facebook? Or just busy studying?
"Do you still love me?" This question has not leave me.
The word "Wait" is pain the ass, seriously. But that is ALL that I can do!
"Wait."
HerGard3n.
Friday, March 21, 2008
Beneficial
People tend to do whats beneficial for themselves; they hardly think about others.
I was and still will do things that benefits myself. But not on you, anymore.
It has been my wrongs that get me to this.
You see a salesman, they want commisions from their company..
You see a housewife, they want discounted goods..
You see a teenager, they want to be able to feel confident and walk out that door and be the attention..
You a see a guy with a prostitute, they want sex!
Even a blogger, they create blogs.. Why? Coz it benefits them!
Me?
My mistake was I was too selfish and kept on pushing him and what happenes next?
I lost him.
This is the act of 'Selfish'.
Yes, sometimes things do go the way you want and it benefits you.
BUT sometimes, think of the consequences before you do it. Coz it might cost you more than what you have got for yourself.
HerGard3n.
I was and still will do things that benefits myself. But not on you, anymore.
It has been my wrongs that get me to this.
You see a salesman, they want commisions from their company..
You see a housewife, they want discounted goods..
You see a teenager, they want to be able to feel confident and walk out that door and be the attention..
You a see a guy with a prostitute, they want sex!
Even a blogger, they create blogs.. Why? Coz it benefits them!
Me?
My mistake was I was too selfish and kept on pushing him and what happenes next?
I lost him.
This is the act of 'Selfish'.
Yes, sometimes things do go the way you want and it benefits you.
BUT sometimes, think of the consequences before you do it. Coz it might cost you more than what you have got for yourself.
HerGard3n.
Her Post
Maybe no matter how I try, you're not coming back to me...
I'm shaking again. Its been last week since I called and said:"I will wait for you.."
I don't want to lose you.
My best friend told me to let you go, you know I just can't. It takes a lot of courage to love you and to let you go..its ever harder.
I've been selfish. When you know that you love a person, you'd push him more to expect more from them. And not knowing that I have 'squeezed' all I can from you.. It's been my bad.
Not to the extent to know that I have lost you!
I love you. I'm really sorry...
I've not know how it would be like to lose you when I was still with you..
Tears drooling down my cheeks. It tells me that I am in great pain.
To lose you is the same thing as losing my breath.
How can I go on without you?
You told me that you are driving and couldn't talk. I wonder if your parents are with you; that you feel awkward to talk to me? Or is it that you just don't want to talk to me?
I want and at the same time I don't want to know the truth. What is the truth?
Please talk to me? It's been a weeks since I hear your voice. It takes a lot of courage and patience not to push or stress you out to talk to me...
Oh time...Please speed this period and let me know the answer please?
HerGard3n.
I'm shaking again. Its been last week since I called and said:"I will wait for you.."
I don't want to lose you.
My best friend told me to let you go, you know I just can't. It takes a lot of courage to love you and to let you go..its ever harder.
I've been selfish. When you know that you love a person, you'd push him more to expect more from them. And not knowing that I have 'squeezed' all I can from you.. It's been my bad.
Not to the extent to know that I have lost you!
I love you. I'm really sorry...
I've not know how it would be like to lose you when I was still with you..
Tears drooling down my cheeks. It tells me that I am in great pain.
To lose you is the same thing as losing my breath.
How can I go on without you?
You told me that you are driving and couldn't talk. I wonder if your parents are with you; that you feel awkward to talk to me? Or is it that you just don't want to talk to me?
I want and at the same time I don't want to know the truth. What is the truth?
Please talk to me? It's been a weeks since I hear your voice. It takes a lot of courage and patience not to push or stress you out to talk to me...
Oh time...Please speed this period and let me know the answer please?
HerGard3n.
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