Odd Feelings

Really don't know what my feelings are now.

Q: Feeling loved?
A: Yes.

Q: Loving someone?
A: Err... (come back with this question later?)

Q: Caring?
A: He cares a lot for me. Can see that he HAS totally fallen in love with me.

Q: You care?
A: Well, I feel like someone who's taking care of him. And in terms of the other kind of care.. I think I am being caring enough?? Does that answer the question?

Q: Are you happy?
A: At this moment, I think I am.

Q: Time is passing slow?
A: Nope, in fact it feels it is pasing fast. Good?

Q: Feeling?
A: Feeling odd when I am with him. It's just too fast I feel. My feelings tells me that I am just not ready to tell the world that I am with him just yet. Although he and I are like spreading it on FB and FS, but I still feel that I am just not ready to tell people "Our Story" just yet. Just hating the people who comes in and 'campuk' and question about your life wheareas usually they don't talk to you in daily life.

Q: Why aren't you ready to tell people just yet?
A: I feel I don't have the need to explain or to tell them what is going on with my life. I live for myself and yes, as well as people who surrounds me. BUT not like "Having Discussions" about my LIFE! I just don't like people discussing my life. Making sense?

Q: Close friends?
A: So far, only 3good friends knows. Hommies haven't found this out just yet. As I want it, time will pass. Am waiting for the right time.

Q: Sex?
A: Only knowing him for less than 3weeks. Sex is good. *winks* YES. He's better!! He's got more stamina than my ex. And he is the second man who has got into me. Yes. F**ked me. Loved his smiles when he's on top. His charming and the caring-loved-felt feeling were all there.

Q: Future with this man?
A: Maybe. We'll see. His dad is in the politics. Mom's a Datin. (there are pros and cons. Politics. You know what I mean..). But I do want to hope that there is future..

Q: Wealthy?
A: No idea. Curious, but I think I might just leave that there. Coz he is a gentle-charming-lovable boyfriend. Lets let this stay there and let time tell the story ey?

Q: Do you love him(again)?
A: So far, my feelings are: I miss him when he's not around. I laugh whenever I teased him and he laughs and says that although he hates it whenever I teased him, but somehow he likes to see me laugh and smile. :) Do I? You tell..


Again. Time will tell us.




HerGard3n.

It's Been a While

Yea. It's been a while since I last post?

Never thought times flies by so slow before and now it's flying fast?
I am not making sense aren't I??

I am 'in a relationship' mode now.
*sigh*
Tell me about it. Ya. I am in a relationship now.
The truth???

Well the truth is, I'm scared. Don't know how this is happening and don't know if it works?
Don't even know how to deal with things when time comes.
In Love??

I have no idea..
Somehow I feel I needed someone to be there and this guy was just perfect for now.
Selfish?
Maybe I am.
I just really don't know how to deal with things anymore.

It happened too quick.
Met him in a student association group. Club together after the dinner with the bunch(But we'd only had a small chat. I guess he was definately checking my out when I was dancing on the dancefloor doin' my thang there! ;))

How did we even started I dont know!!
Okay. Student association.. Club... OH YES!!! He added me on FB.. And then Messenger.. And THEN we started to talk!! *finally remembered. Phew~*

So yes. We started talking here and there...bla bla Blah~
He asked me if my webcame needed reparing. I was like "No."
He then sent me the webcam viewing. While waiting for me to accept, I went:" Are you serious??"
Him(in a funny yet charming way):"Do I look like I'm kidding?"
*haha~* winked* ;))

And so~ We started talking.
Somehow, somewhere in between 2days of chatting. He thinks he's In Love?
WHO??
ME!!!
**$%#$%**
Yes. F**cked are you F**ckin' kidding me?!!!

Nope. He's not kidding. He is in love with me.
At first I couldn't believed it.
We went to a student trip together yesterday. (we were together a day before the trip.)
He slept over my place for 2days alrd.

My best-est & the only person who understand me the most. *woii Chindian! Yes You! Don't marah me cAn?!*
Her:"Don't rush things yea. Take it slow."
*Paiseh. I didn't.*

It's quick huh? Yeah. I know. Tell me about it. Don't ask me why and no questions for now please.
I am yet to be ready to answer anybody's questions.
He cares. And he cares for me.. k?

And no. My feelings tells me, he is no rebound. I will give him the best of me.

Thank you.

Time will prove things. I need it.



Her Gard3n.